Chrissy seems to have it all.
She's got an amazing career as a model, she's the co-host of Lip Sync Battle, she married her dream man who writes her beautiful songs (don't we all want a John Legend in our lives?!), and she became a mom to adorable little Luna.
But behind the funny quips on Twitter, Chrissy was dealing with postpartum depression.
She never revealed her secret battle with it until now when she penned a beautiful essay about her struggles for Glamour magazine.
Chrissy knew something was wrong, but she couldn't pin down why she just felt different.
She initially chalked it up to being unsettled because she was living in a hotel while her house was being renovated. But even after she moved back into the family home, nothing changed.
"But I was different than before. Getting out of bed to get to set on time was painful ... I didn’t have an appetite. I would go two days without a bite of food, and you know how big of a deal food is for me."
It wasn't just the physical pain or the loss of appetite that alarmed Chrissy. She knew something was off when she realized how she was interacting with people.
"One thing that really got me was just how short I was with people. I would be in my dressing room, sitting in a robe, getting hair and makeup done, and a crew member would knock on the door and ask: 'Chrissy, do you know the lyrics to this song?' And I would lose it."
She continued to describe how she couldn't figure out what was wrong and reasoned with herself that maybe it was a change she just had to accept.
"I couldn’t figure out why I was so unhappy. I blamed it on being tired and possibly growing out of the role: 'Maybe I’m just not a goofy person anymore. Maybe I’m just supposed to be a mom.'"
Chrissy detailed how the postpartum depression began to take over her life.
"When I wasn’t in the studio, I never left the house. I mean, never." She continued, "Most days were spent on the exact same spot on the couch and rarely would I muster up the energy to make it upstairs for bed."
But things started looking up after a trip to the doctor where it was confirmed that she had postpartum depression.
And Chrissy really credits John for helping her through it all.
"John has been incredible over the last nine months, bringing me my medicine and watching horrible reality TV with me. He is not the goofiest guy, but he has gone out of his way to indulge my sense of humor."
So why is Chrissy opening up about it now? She said she wants it to be known that it can happen to anyone.
"I also just didn’t think it could happen to me ... but postpartum does not discriminate. I couldn’t control it. And that’s part of the reason it took me so long to speak up: I felt selfish, icky, and weird saying aloud that I’m struggling. Sometimes I still do."
Chrissy also revealed that she's not going to let it stop her from having more children in the future.
"I love John and Luna more than I can imagine loving anything, and John and I still hope to give Luna a few siblings. Postpartum hasn't changed that."
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